As a young woman, I am intelligent enough to understand that there are
different people in this world who do not feel the same as the majority.
Some people have no desire for intimacy or romantic relationships. It
seems that society categorize asexuals as being closeted lesbians or
homosexuals. If its not that, we are either scared, have been violated
horrifically at some point in our lives or we are broken human beings.
Example: I am an asexual 20 years old female. Ever since I was a small
child, I have always known that I didn't feel whatever everyone else
felt when it came to physical closeness or romantic love. I've never had
a boyfriend, a first kiss or been remotely sexually attracted to some
one. Not that I'm saying about that or those reasons are whats "keeping
me from living life" as others put it, I simply have no desire for that
type relationship. Although I've never had sex, I am repulsed by it
& want to stay a virgin. Cuddling, intimacy & anything else that
has to do with physical closeness annoys me. I don't need anyone
(physically, mentally ,emotionally) because I do everything for myself
& I manage just fine, Being alone suits me just fine, I care not for
companionship. I like my solitude. I would hope to fall in live with my
career, not a person.
Do I get attracted to the opposite sex, sure. However, I am very,
peculiarly picky & lose interest really quickly. Although some
females have been attracted to me, I feel no attraction to them at all,
cant fault them for how they feel however. I am not a" closet lesbian"
as some might suggest.
If anything, I value platonic friendships, intelligent conversations
& the ability to understand differences among others. As some people
might gets aroused by sexual desire, those three things mentioned above
are what stimulate me. I believe in toleration, nothing romantic.
My family has asked (in whispers among themselves, not to me) was I
lesbian since I haven't brought anyone around the family. I guess
because all of my other cousins have shown their significant others to
everyone, you know boasted, bragged, made it official & I'm the
lonely ranger. My issue with this is, first off, I am still in college,
working hard to get my degree, so even if I was "anatomically programmed
correctly", Id wait until I had my own life situated before I chose
companionship. Second, why is everyone worried about my business anyway?
What I do & what I chose is my business, not my 8th cousin &
7th cousin once removed place to know.
My mom is even questioning me about why I am choosing to go down the
path I'm going on. To her, I'm an immature little girl who is stuck in
selfishness & denying the human feelings to take place. The only
reason I take her opinion with a grain of salt is because she & I do
not have any sort of relationship. She doesn't know me.
Strangers who if ask, I do express what I feel call me selfish for my
not wanting kids biologically (I plan to adopt), say I'm just young
& naiive &attribute who I am to being genetically miss placed.
To them, its like some weird disease that can be cured with a kiss or I
just have to find the "right person" & if I choose to stay alone for
life, "not opening myself up to love", I'll grow old & bitter about
my decision.
Why are people who feel & understand what I do judged so harshly & told we are not correctly formed human beings?
Thanks for answering!
Title : As a young woman, I am intelligent enough to understand
Description : As a young woman, I am intelligent enough to understand that there are different people in this world who do not feel the same as the major...